Sunday, 20 December 2015

A Walk Down Memory Lane!



Click the link below and read the poem with proper punctuation and indent


Yester Me, Yester You, Yester We
Somewhere in time,
We had chirpy chatter and chime,
Still it flashes before my eyes,
Like
It was all a Yesterday’s sight.
Some super sweet souvenirs,
Light the corner of my mind,
Don’t you think
Those misty, water-colored memories
Of the way we were,
Deserve to be rhymed?
It’s been a decade since,
We left,
Wonder, the ‘NBM’ is still same
Or completely changed?
But then, altered or not,
Only the version we dwelled
Is what I recall.
As kindergarten kids, we first stepped,
All in white-n-blue,
Were meetly dressed;
Milky-white socks went well
With perfectly polished shoes,
Stripped white-blue belt was a force,
But
The vogue of skirt, we were free to choose.
Albeit, quite cool was uniform,
But for tie n badge, was no room,
To compensate that, winter always brought
Blazers of blee, red and maroon.
Out of custom or habit, know not what,
But yes, before footing
We always touched this temple’s threshold.
Each struck on bell’s rim, made a clear sign
As if telling
Dear students, seats, you’re sitting, you’ve to resign.
Along with ringing, in rows we paced for the prayer,
Depending upon standards,
Some were set in hall, some in the open air.
With ‘attention’ and ‘relax’, our focus used to be centered,
Mainly mentioned for the morning meetings
Were
The song, the prayer and the anthem.
Six week days, six new hymns,
Sir at harmonium, a pack of students used to sing
Rests were like chorus, citing every string.
Half an hour and this ceremony ends,
We regain our seats, in our allotted wings.
Most monotonous was that ten minute session,
‘Yes sir’, ‘yes mam’
Shouting students, the teacher taking attendance.
Now desks were decked with books
Coming out of satchel,
Two continuous hours went like this
Without any cessation.
Then, the bell rang long for the recess time,
Placed properly motley ‘durries’
Before classrooms and also by,
Hunger was so great
That
Lunch-boxes were emptied, even in a blink of an eye.
Water tanks and coolers
Were set in two hut like design,
We made fast for them
Hoping, ‘ll be saved from a long line.
Attraction of the break
Was always playing some childish plays of our time;
Be it ‘pek-dook’ or ‘gatta’
‘Antakhshari’ or ‘chuppam-chuppai’
Each was such a delight,
We were all gay inside, and joy at its prime;
After all it was recess-time.
Now, back in classes, we surrender to the books,
Scenario becomes as usual, till ‘way to home’ 
We took.
But, ohh those occasional days!
How I miss them;
The ‘ruthi-jaayi-re’ getup and the ‘manjhi-o-manjhi’ dhun,
That ‘naani-teri-morni’song
And the ‘sarhad-natak’ with props;
Could we seek much more?
Really, annual-fest was such a charm!
Not less was our patriotic zeal
While boys’ hands hit hard the dumbbell drills
Girls’ generated jingling of lezim;
Drum’s rhythm made
Parade to march, and band to perform,
Also in gymnastic and PT
We were involved, and danced 
Ethnic dances in various form.
Ohh yes, how can i forget!
The gala of 'Basant-Panchami'
'the yellow day' actually,
When everyone of us shined the light saffrony.
'Bal-sabha' was every saturday's show,
Pretty misty is memory
So, i can't recall any more.
Let this one be hazy
But sure i am
The belly-laughs we had,
Those 'just-for-fun' prankes
And some crushes crazy,
Will always bring feeling something like mushy.
Years passed by,
Different pathways we got through
Its cycle of life, we let it flow.
Now, i laugh to our immature mind's deed,
Relive our naughtiness
And rack my head to guess
That
Childlike cute cheeks of the time, now surely grow 
Suave stubble,
Silky-short ponytail of the time, now freely flow
With length double.
Everything is going to change,
Nothing stays same.
Life will throw a lot of challenges,
And there is a danger
Someday our best pal might be a stranger.
It'll be hard to recollect names
Forget our old stupid games.
Quite long i've walked the lane
Yet, it seems as if 
A lot is left unsaid
A lot of memories 
Still unstirred.
How i wish those times could stay
Where the time goes?
Don't know
But definitely,
Fairly fast it makes its way.

Wednesday, 11 November 2015

#LoveLyric #3

Jaane naa yeh kya hua
Jaane naa main kya se kya ho gayi
Suno, 
kahin yeh tumhare ishq ka surur to nahi
Haa, shayad yeh hai wahi
Kahte hai log 
Chhori tu thi toh naa aesi baawri
Kya, kisi ka thikana hai abb tera dil

Ho gaya hai baawara man
   baawara sa hi hai abb dil;
Bewaqt, bewajah kyun ek hi jid
   kahin toh inn aankhon ko tu jaaye mil

Ho gaya hai Beswadi yeh jahaan
    beswadi si hai abb har manjil
Bedard hua har ek dard, phir kyun
    tum bin jeena behad mushkil

Jaane naa yeh kya hua
Jaane naa main kya se kya ho gayi
Suno, 
kahin yeh tumhare ishq ka surur to nahi
Haa, shayad yeh hai wahi
Kahte hai log 
Chhori tu thi toh naa aesi baawri
Kya, kisi ka thikaana hai abb tera dil.

Sunday, 1 November 2015

Soulful !

Pal bhar thahar jaao
Dil ye sambhal jaaye
Kaise tumhe roka karun
Meri taraf aata har gham phisal jaaye
Aankhon mein tum ko bharun
Bin bole baatein tumse karun
'gar tum saath ho..
Agar tum saath ho
Behti rehti..
Nahar nadiya si teri duniya mein
Meri duniya hai teri chaahaton mein
Main dhal jaati hoon teri aadaton mein
'gar tum saath ho
Teri nazron mein hai tere sapne
Tere sapno mein hai naraazi
Mujhe lagta hai ke baatein dil ki
Hoti lafzon ki dhokebaazi
Tum saath ho ya na ho kya fark hai
Bedard thi zindagi bedard hai
Agar tum saath ho
Agar tum saath ho
Palkein jhapakte hi din ye nikal jaaye
Bethi bethi bhaagi phirun
Meri taraf aata har gham phisal jaaye
Aankhon mein tum ko bharun
Bin bole baatein tumse karun
'gar tum saath ho
Agar tum saath ho
Teri nazron mein hai tere sapne
Tere sapno mein hai naraazi
Mujhe lagta hai ke baatein dil ki
Hoti lafzon ki dhokebaazi
Tum saath ho ya na ho kya fark hai
Bedard thi zindagi bedard hai
Agar tum saath ho
Dil ye sambhal jaaye
(Agar tum saath ho)
Har gham phisal jaaye
(Agar tum saath ho)
Din ye nikal jaaye
(Agar tum saath ho)
Har gham phisal jaaye
- Irshad Kamil

Thursday, 29 October 2015

Bday : Love you or Hate you?

Its my "bday" again. Lemme first wish myself.

Happy birthday to meeee!!
     Happy birthday to meeeeee!!
May God bless me!

   So, here i am, still in my early twenties, preparing myself for the next wonderful year. Hope, it'll be wonderful in the bright sense. ;-) Last year i wished so, and it turned out to be in another way around. Fingers crossed! Anyway let the past be buried and start this year afresh.
   Literally, I'm not the type of girl, who go gaga over birthdayzzz. I just take it as a usual day as any other day of a year, so do my family, except the celebration which my friends arrange. Yeah that is something worth awaiting for. I totally love that. Otherwise, i don't even grasp the real emotion that a birthday buddy is supposed to feel. Seriously, i swing betwixt two extremes : Rejoice or Remorse.
What i mean, i fail to decide whether i should be in a happy hole that I've passed one more year successfully or should i pity myself that I've lost one more year without anything hot & happening in it? What is the yardstick for this assessment? i don't know. But i know this much that the elder i grow the more expectations begin to showcase themselves in the eyes of my parents. Actually, with each mushrooming year, the chances for being sometime naughty and innocent are scaling down and more & more responsibilities are loading their luggage on my shoulders. Poor me. :-(
    But then everyone sails in the same boat, I'm not a rare case. So, i shouldn't be paranoid about it. No? Rather i ought to be mature enough to handle the forthcoming expectations. Hence, from this bday onwards I'm no longer hater of birthdays on this pretext at least, which i used to be.
    But what of that "exchange ceremony"? I mean gifts and return gifts. I also dont appreciate that. What is the sense in that? Do those gifts really profess our emotions towards our dear & near ones? I think not. Ya, they can please people for once or till their expiry date. After that? After that the memory will fade with the fading of that gift. That's it. But, the little efforts we make to feel them special, our precious time that we save to consume on their bday, the b'ful plans that we prepare for celebrations do make such a memory that never die.
So, your time, your hangouts with me will go superbly for my this day rather than any bombastic bday present. No, wait......actually, you can present me one better thing. Point out one faulty feature about me on my each bday, and this will definitely make my bday flawless.
If bdayz are such then i love them :-) :-).

Thursday, 22 October 2015

Do It My Way!

    Diwali-Day -  getting ready, making rangoli, performing pooja, lighting 'diya', taking pictures, celebrating with crackers and games, enjoying sweets, ogling at decorated markets, homes, streets. Too many wishes & too many blessings. A Divine Day!
    Pre-Diwali Days - purchasing necessary stuff, be it dress for diwali day or 'diyas for the 'pooja'; be it sugar for sweets or lights for lighting; be it fire-crackers to be fused or flowers for decoration; be it colors for rangoli or 'shagun-shopping' on Dhanteras. Each and everything that we like to buy, we do. Too many preparation & so much zeal. Really TirelessTime!  
    PRE-pre-diwali days - don't even ask yaar. All the cleaning, dabbing, washing, white-washing, painting, arranging, re-arranging(in case former doesn't suit your need or your mood) are included during these days. Too much stress & too much work. Must say Hectic Hours !
    Usually with the beginning of 'Navratra' those hectic-hours start to happen at my house and i am supposed to do all 'the diwali-safai' entrusted on me(yea, we divide it to make it easy) along with my cupboard and book-rack. Being a bibliophile, i always begin with my bookshelves, after that the wardrobe and other stuffs. I do contribute in this cleaning-campaign, but this whole concept is completely incomprehensible to me. They say that, its a tradition to eradicate all the rubbish and unwanted items from our home before diwali day, so that Goddess Laxmi may bless us with her entrance in our home, as according to them she prefers neat & tidy places only. WTF ! Totally fanatic philosophy it is!
      
      But sadly, Year in, year out we go for the same process. Tell me one thing- Do you really think that God has anything to do with your sweeping up the cobwebs from attics or with the white-washing of your house? Do you really believe that unless your house is cleaned, divine won't depart to dwell at your dwelling? Think once, What he has to do with this? Nothing!
      Cleanliness is next to Godliness, i know, but you know what God has a symbolic meaning behind every ritual and tradition. He had set up each and every custom with a great purpose in his mind and this rite too is not an exception, i think. Only we need to decipher it.
      So, what i decoded is that, this custom carries the tagline :- MOP UP MIND instead of mundane materials. This is what he really wants us to do. This is why this tradition is there. Too little he expects, doesn't he? Then what's the problem in it? Lets this season do the 'diwali-safai' this way.  Lets follow some steps of this sort of 'Safai'
-Exonerate others for their venials,
-whisk off all grudges towards others,
-zap the murkiest with the brightest,
-brush aside all the rubbish thoughts. No, wait a second!.... throw it away rather,
-scrub up the malice from your mind,
-Wash yourself with altruism,
-and lastly, perfume your heart with healthy morals ........and then see the magic. I bet the Deity will always reside in your heart and home as well.


        
       so, this Diwali
                    clean, not only your home, 
                           but your heart also;
                      illumine, not only your street,
                           but your soul also.

Tuesday, 6 October 2015

Life Is What You Make It !.......Really?

    "Passion for anything is good, but too much passion is poisonous. If we avoid our health, wealth.......then one day they will avoid us" ( 'Life is what you make it',  preeti shenoy)
Read your novels....
     'The One you can not have', 'The secret wishlist' are truly awesome. 'Life is what you make it' is also inspiring one but the overall concept is little bit tricky to comprehend. You said there that life is what we make it, is it really so?  Then, i wanna ask one thing  :- why most of the people are not happy with their self-made life.....with their own creation?
      Don't u think that Destiny, Luck, and Chance are equivalent to AMBITION , PASSION, and HARD WORK. Don't you think that they play their role on the same scale?  Sometimes without luck your hard work doesn't pay fully, sometimes without chance ambition fails to ripe..... even fails to grow rather, sometimes without destiny's hand passion loses its way. It so happens then how can we say that life is what we make it. In making of life we are as much involved as much other factors. You may say that there is a half-half participation of them in life. We can't blame one for failure, in the same way we can't praise one for the victory. That's why i believe 'Life is not what you make it alone'  instead, 'Life is what 3Ds ( destiny + desire + determination ) make it.'
  

Thursday, 1 October 2015

Review : Tell Me A Story


To get the ball rolling, I'd first like to state some gems of this inspiring anthology #Tell Me A Story:-
" I expect to pass through this world but once, any good thing I can do, therefore, or any kindness I can show to any fellow creature, let me do it now. Let me not defer or neglect it, for I shall not pass this way again" (Heera Nawaj)
"Grow in the place where you are planted. Never, ever be a contrived person. Be yourself." (Heera Nawaj)
"Death, I believe, is not an experience for dead but for the living." (Sukanya M.)
"Love is all about giving hope when there is no reason to optimistic. And being the best we can be for the person we love." (Aaditi dhyani)
The concept of the stories ‘The Divine Intervention', ‘Unforgiven' and ‘Suicide (so decide)' is highly commendable. Each and every story of this thoughtful compilation is truly inspiring, touching, funny and heartfelt, thus justifying its subtitle very well. No doubt all the pieces end with one or other life lesson but this entire submission and selection made me infer one thing  i.e. the events and incidents that have affected and changed the lives of the those 21 budding writers are tragic and sad not happy ones. Emotions that have altered their paths, thinking and likings are revolving around Death, Disease and Deprivation either in their own life or in others'. I don't know how far I am right in this assumption but it seems to me that God believes in that Hindi saying - "laaton ke bhoot baaton se nahi maante". That is why, now and then he keeps giving us major or minor blows in the form of the loss of dear and near ones, or the mental and physical miseries, thus changing our direction, modifying our thinking, leading us towards what is valid; otherwise we the people live in illusions, considering the way we walk as the right one.
 Lastly, Kudos to all the writers and the editor-cum-compiler for such a stimulating anthology. ( BTW, the editor's note is quite convincing.)
P.S. - Waiting for your next magnum opus.

Sunday, 30 August 2015

And This Is What She Confided!!

And This Is What She Confided!!!

        This rakhi, i got to know a totally different aspect of bro-siso relationship. Let me share that with you.
        I bumped into a lady on a rakhi shop, who was there with the same purpose i.e. to-get-the-best-rakhi-for-the-best-brother. Usually, i don't ogle at anyone, but there happened something that made me stare at her. A Tear, that accidentally fell on my hand when i was rummaging those rakhi-boxes. Firstly i was not sure whether that was a tear or something else, but it didn't take much time for that assurance as her red-swollen eyes were saying everything. Yes, she was weeping but for what reason ?
        I wanted to know, what it was that made her cry on such a gay occasion. Whether something terrible has happened with her, or with her family. Whether she doesn't have any brother or her brother is not on speaking terms with her. I tried to reach any reasonable reason but all arguments didn't work out. After all its true we can't guess the toil-and-coil that runs into a person's mind. So, without much ado i turned to her.
    "Are you okay?" I inquired in a low tone as i didn't want to make a pageant of her feelings.
    She didn't hear, or i guess  something was so deeply hurting her that everything else had come to a standstill for her.
      "Excuse me! Are you okay mam?" I asked again but this time in a slightly high pitch.
     "What?.....Haaa...haa.....i am okay." She finally heard and replied. Though her answer was positive but her tone stated everything. She was surely .........
     "Then why that red complexion in your eyes?" I asked with a demanding voice as though i know her since very long.
      "Oh.....that's nothing. It's just......
    "That something went into your eyes and all that. Don't try to befool me with that dialogue." I interrupted her.
     I don't know why i was behaving like that but i knew i felt empathy for her.
   "You can confide in me. Anything that is hurting you at this moment, tell me. Sometimes It feels nice to share with strangers when you can not express it to familiar ones." I tried to make her speak up and she did. It seemed as if she was waiting to pour out everything.
     And what was that, you can read in her story that i tried to sum up here in manuscript form as i don't want to distort a bit of her feeling .......check the pic

Thursday, 30 July 2015

Sometimes Sorriezz Are Not Enough!

Sometimes Sorries Are Not Enough!


          Feeling so guilty. How can i do this? Have i gone to nuts? Have all my manners and etiquette left me alone with all such irresponsible disposition? Where is my sociability? Am i such a goofy girl? What has happened to me? Are those horoscopic disorders still working on me?...........Don't know yaar. But this is not me. Something is really wrong.
 
           One of my friends got engaged one month before.  Today she threw a party to all of us. Ours is a five friends flock. All three of us reached almost on the time and the engaged friend and my best friend were already there waiting for us. Actually my bf lives nearby. In fact in the same lane where our engaged friend lives. We received a warm welcome there. She gave us a full party. Lots of items there in the menu list. We hardly stayed three hours but enjoyment was surpassing all the time limit. There was fun, food and flashes, everything that one can expect from a celebration. Everyone enjoyed. I also tried to do the same. From the time of entering her house, i genuinely tried to enjoy the party. Yaa...TRIED. Initially, i didn't want to attend it. Actually, I am OK with bday bashes, success celebrations or any casual gathering but it was her ....u know what it was.....the very thing that would bring back all the troubling memories back. I searched for some excuses by which i could just call off going at her home. But, on the second thought i felt, that it wont be fair with her to skip this party, so i participated but with full preparations. I was carrying a to-do list in my mind. All i had to do was :- congratulating her, talking, teasing, laughing, cracking jokes, having served items, taking group pictures, calling on my bf's home, meeting her mumma and at last 'Home sweet Home'. That's all. I was prepared.
           I managed to be happy there, i was teasing her on occasions, i laughed whenever need forced me to do that , i smiled at every suitable situation, i clicked and was clicked, without once denying i did all that was expected from me because i knew it was her special day and i did not wanna spoil the smile on her face. I did not want to make them feel my situation and my uneasiness. So i was doing the needful. Photo session went OK, food session went OK. Everything went OK except one thing. One important thing. The second last thing of my list. I simply forgot to visit her place. It was .......sorry, not was it IS a great blunder. How could this happen? But it did happen in spite of my double careful mind. All the time i was checking my to-do list. All the time i was rewinding things in my mind. All the time i was listening to my mind. Then, how was it possible?
            I think ......all such considerations so much overpowered me that i forgot that. I just forgot to pay a visit at my Bestie's home. I did not called on her house despite of being in her locality. All my efforts for being normal there made me to commit an abnormal mistake. All my mind managements made such a big fuss. That's why people say , listen to your heart not mind while dealing with your dear ones. Its a big lesson for me.
          By the time i realised my mistake, it was too late to make any amendments. I apologised her and she simply forgave me. Still, there is a guilt feeling with me. The only solution is the penning down of my blunders and accepting my mistakes.
          It is true that true friends accept each other with all their flaws n features. And i m damn confident that u have forgiven me for this but still i want to assure u that these flaws are not inborn. I m not like this. This is just an effect of one bad chapter which was accidentally pinned up in my life-book. I am trying to remove all the dark shades of that additional part. Till then excuse me if i am again at mistake. I wont say you a sorry because SOMETIMES SORRies ARE NOT ENOUGH.


PS:- We are BFFs, right? BFs' relationship is not a brittle bond. So, i feel free to make a complain. I think you should have reminded me when i was making mistake. Because, between us it doesn't matter who says first, all that matters is our meeting, our b'ful BFF friendship. So, please from now onwards don't keep tasting me ;-)

Wednesday, 22 July 2015

Its All Upto Mood



         In art, we usually reveal ourselves but this time i feel my mood revealed the art. My two different mood swings resulted in two different paintings.
One is of an 'Unstarry Cold Night' and other is of a 'Soothing Saffrony Sunlight'. Totally contrasting each other. Why?  Just because of varying emotional states. does it mean that mood is the main maker?  Does mood make all difference. Are paper , pattern and paint selected according to mood. ? Well, i guess so. Otherwise why didn't i pick bright colors in my gloomy mood or vice versa? Why didn't i paint sunlight in dejected disposition or vice versa? .....................Why don't i play any cheerful song in sorrowful state or vice versa? Why am i so rude in troublesome time or vice versa? Why don't i prefer to go picnics during perplexing situations or vice versa? Why? Why? Why?......These so much whyz prove one thing that my mood holds high position in my life.
          My doings and my makings all up to my mood. My paintings and my writings all up to my mood.  Dark shades or light shades its all up to mood. Rounds or rectangles its all up to mood. Sad songs or peppy numbers its all up to mood.  Love poetry or war poetry its all up to mood. Comics or tragic stories its all up to mood. Solitude or some picnic sport its all up to mood. Indoors or outdoors its all up to mood. Spicy or sweet its all up to mood. Cold drink or hot coffee its all up to mood. ( hey, this one depends on weather also ;-) ) Short skirt or patiyaala Salwar its all up to mood. To speak abruptly or to keep mum its all up to my moooood mooood and moooood. Uff.....I think everything depends on mood till there is no compulsions and restrains, at least in my case. In a nut shell, I AM A MOODY PERSON.
  
Mood matters, mood makes;
       My life, specially my art
Has nothing to do with Anything else!


P.S.- Even my blog posts are also up to mood ;-) :-p

Wednesday, 15 July 2015

#ALove-LornLyric #2

A Love-Lorn Lyric



Kah Du Tumko, Dil Mein Hai Kya, Jaane Kaise Machhi Yeh Halchal Hai,
Roku Issko, Roka Kitna, Haye Pagal Yeh Mera Dil Hai,
Yeh Jaana Hai Maine,
Abb Issko Bataun, Dheere Se Samjhaun,
Tera Mera Milna Mushkil Hai;

Tu Hai Khada Jis Mod Par,
Uss Raah Par Kadam Rukte Hai,
Har Waqt, Har Jagah
Tujhko Talashane, Naina Ye Mere Adte Hai,
Haari Main Haari Isske Aage
Kambakkht, Kitna Jiddi Yeh Dil Hai;
Kah Du……!

Har Sapne Ke Panne Par,
Bas Tu Hi Likha Hai, Tu Hi Bassa Hai,
Tu Mile Yaa Naa Mile,
Naa Tujhse Koi Gilaa, Naa Hi Shikwa Hai,
Meri Yaadon Ke Dariyaan Mein,
Tu Kahin Naa Kahin Shamil Hai;
Kah Du……!